Hey ,

A lil’ life update from me before we dig into the mystery behind those PMS emo-vibes that I know you’re oh so curious about 🤔

But if you’d rather skip the how-I-wound-up-back-in-Costa-Rica story, just scroll on down to where it says the real reason why you get emotional before your period 👇

The magical part of this tale is how I wound up deciding on this little beach town I had spent time in back in 2015…

Here’s how it went:

😲 found out I needed to book using my credits before Dec 31st or I’d lose out on $800 worth of a plane ticket. Eeep!

🤔 panicked about… where to go. the fact that I shouldn’t be spending money on a trip right now. and how I would REALLY prefer to not travel solo these days.

💭 said out-loud before bed that night “please show me where I’m meant to book this trip…”

🪄 woke up the next morning and knew I’d dreamt of Puerto Viejo — a tiny beach town on the southern Caribbean where I’d stayed before & after yoga teacher training nearly a decade ago.

👯‍♀️ a week later, two of my dearest friends decided they wanted to go to Costa Rica too. So while I’m here solo for a week, they get in on Sunday and I am ECSTATIC to have travel buddies. 🥰

I’m not going to jinx myself and say this trip was fated for perfection because of all the little pre-Winks I got that landed me here — that would be a terrible idea 😉 but I will say that even in the midst of my predictable first-day-in-a-foreign-country “oh fck, what am I doing here?!” doubts, I’m reminding myself exactly *how I landed here.

And any time this many Winks show up, I know my decision wasn’t based on haste, panic, or pressure.

So for now, that’ll do just fine. ♥️

Thanks for tuning into storytime! Now onto…

…the real reason why you get emotional before your period

I hear from so many women how their Inner Autumn (pre-bleed) time is straight-up treacherous. You’re as likely to blow up your career as you are to cry at a puppy commercial. (Sarah McLachlan’s ASPCA ads not withstanding… those make me teary no matter where I am in my cycle.)

I get it. I’ve been there.

I’ve started the fights. Made the seemingly terrible decisions.

Such a joy ride, huh? 🙃

But tbh, there was a point where I had NO IDEA it was an Inner Autumn/”PMS” thing… I was clueless.

I’d been aware that seemingly “out of nowhere” my internal dialogue would turn apocalyptic and I’d become my own worst enemy. I’d be thinking awful things about myself, frustrated with work, my living situation. EVERYTHING. WAS. AWFUL.

It wasn’t until after I’d been cycle tracking for a few months that I finally connected the dots in what I now refer to as “The Day 28 Lightbulb Moment”

At that 3 month mark of cycle tracking, I looked at my daily notes and 💡HOLY SH*T💡…

The EVERYTHING-IS-AWFUL day was happening the same day…

Every month…

DAY 28 — and then 2 days later my bleed would start.

Cue… Your Pre-Menstrual “Oracle” 🔮

After nearly a decade of cycle tracking, I now see those pre-menstrual days of Inner Autumn as an Oracle.

The wiser-than-my-conscious-self version that is trying to get my attention with a big mood or energy swing in response to something that’s actually out of alignment (and that I’m probably actively trying to ignore).

From changing jobs, to leaving beloved apartments I’d outgrown, and ending friendships that had grown apart — it’s all been guided by what calls for my attention during those “crunchy” days of Inner Autumn.

Sure, it’ll take me a few months to take a hint. But it’s the repetition, the pattern of the thing-that-gets-under-your-skin that MAKES it the Oracle.

So have you tapped into this wild and wise oracle that your cycle brings you every month? And if you haven’t… keep an eye out the next time that the week or so pre-bleed rolls around. Take note, what gets under your skin? What arguments or internal dialogue seems like a broken record?

These are all little Winks from your Inner Autumn Oracle trying to get your attention.

I’d love to hear your stories! Hit reply and tell me of your Inner Autumn big-life-changes, that you knowingly or not-so-knowingly experienced.

Keep tuning in, she’s always trying to get our attention 😉

Big Love, all ways always

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